It have been a long time I don't feel like writing this blog because my life in the recent 6 months cannot be described as "Adventure" as it used to be. It has been "same old same old" - going to work, facing to the computer, having lunch box with co-workers (still facing to the computer at the same time), going to GRE class (with a little effort of concentrating after being exhausted at work), coming home very late at night, skipping dinner and family's delighting moments). Although I love my job working with young students, my current office life has treated me "sleeping pills", making me forget what I used to be and how adventurous I am. No wonder why many young people change their plan from "temporary" to "permanence" working in stable governmental organizations. Taking "those pills" overdose and being pushed further and further in the one-way trail of working industry, I need to find my way out.
Making an excuse of having a fever (actually I was, coincidentally), I stayed at home for the whole day to watch TV shows on Star World and (it is hilarious) talk to myself in English. I miss thinking and communicating in English rather than my shy and childlike Vietnamese, which I completely failed in the last effort of changing. I miss myself and the way I feel comfortable among friends and students - I even miss this blog so bad ! It is amazing how the one day off switched my mind back to 6 months ago - before I started being sick of this job and dying inside gradually.
I need to find my way out of it. Today's decision my lead my future to the huge risk - but it is totally fine because it is how we define "adventure". (Smiling Face)
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